ptsdwellbeing

Symptoms still are vicious at times. Big crowded places require an escape plan. We have problems being safely grounded around little kids. Despite all of that, we are not strange, a freak, or abnormal in any way. Your symptoms are a reflection of the severity of your trauma pain. Denial will only make things worse. We're doing the right things. Protect yourself.

Hi. Did you miss me? Sorry to be away for so long. But I was in the hospital for almost two weeks due to a heart disease relapse. What caused it? A combination of several things: My medication mix needed to be adjusted to have the correct dosages. Inadvertantly, I got sloppy in reading the labels on many things to make sure my diet was a low salt one. But now, the mix is correct and my energy is back. I can focus and don't feel like I have almost no heart function. Despite that, I still have all my health problems. PTSD symptoms are more vicious now than before. You feel at times like you're going to snap in two. But you have to fight back. You don't have the luxury of just sitting back and going with your feelings. That doesn't work. It has to come out. I have nothing to hide behind anymore. Denial will only make things worse. Part of it also is that you feel like you see the full horror of your trauma history and how you have to fight to maintain some sense o...

Sorry to be away for a while. But pain is constant. You feel like you're constantly burned out. But you can't give up. You can't just roll over and do nothing. You have to protect yourself.

You can't just sit back and do nothing. You have to fight back. It's constant burnout. But you don't have a choice. You're not abnormal in any way. You have health problems that are connected to a horrible trauma history. Denial will only make things worse. Don't dissociate. Protect yourself.

You get practically no sleep at all at night. Then, you're constantly fighting exhaustion. You don't want to have a dissociative relapse and then lose track of reality. You have to fight back. You're constantly burned out. But you don't have a choice. Protect yourself.

Another day of fighting symptoms and to not black out. The pain is always there. But you don't have a choice. Don't let your guard down. A relapse will only make pain worse. Protect yourself.

It's a real struggle right now. It feels like the full horror of our trauma histroy is hitting really hard. There's nothing to hide behind. But you try and cope as best you can. Protect yourself.