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Another day of fighting symptoms and to not let your guard down. It's been over three months now since my last dissociative relapse. Yet you can never let your guard down. Escaping doesn't make pain go away. It makes it worse. You lose sense of time and don't care. You have to fight back. Why is that danger always there? Because addicts pain is always there. That stress added to my heart disease and overall system pain. It never goes away. You have to protect yourself.

It feels like all of the backed up trauma pain is flooding out. You feel like you can barely walk. Pain is everywhere. Plus, you have all of the other symptoms to deal with as well. You have to fight back. You don't have a choice. You have to protect yourself.

Nightmares have started again. Is there a consistent theme running thru them? Just feeling like all of the terror of my trauma history is flooding out. It's coming out and that's a scary but good thing. I don't want to relapse and literally disappear. I don't want to feel like the essence of what makes me me is merging into someone else. You have to fight to keep some sense of reality. Because you have to. You have to protect yourself.

A long day of fighting to not let your guard down. If that happens, you have no idea of where you are and don't care. We don't want to be that scared anymore. Protect yourself.

Fighting pain and to not fall apart. Don't let your guard down. But also, intermittent thoughts of suicide. We can't go on with this constant pain. You admit that those thoughts are there, and the you fight your way out of them. Because you have to.

Another day of fighting symptoms and to not fall apart. The pain is always there. You don't want to drop your guard. But the pain never goes away. Body pain Anal pain Psychotic episodes Adrenalin surges Never getting enough sleep You have to fight back. You don't have a choice. Protect yourself.

Another day of fighting symptoms. But you don't have a choice. There is no cure for PTSD. You try and cope as best you can. But the pain is always there. Protect yourself.