Protect Yourself

A really long day with almost no sleep. Sleep paralysis is back. You can't move, talk or open your eyes. You almost have to shock yourself awake. My psychiatrist says that you won't die when it happens. But it's still scary.

We did nothing wrong.
It's not our fault.
We're not a failure.
We won't hurt ourselves or anybody else.
We don't want to relapse and feel terrified.

Protect yourself.

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