Don't Relapse

Struggling to not relapse and fall apart. It will make your pain A MILLION TIMES WORSE. Don't do it. I don't want to fall apart.

You're tortured every day no stop for a really long time. You have psychotic episodes every day as well. Nobody helps you. You feel terrified when you feel like you lose control over your body. But nobody helps you.

You don't want to say to hell with the world and I just don't care anymore about anything. You don't want to fall into that trap. You just want to be able to sit, focus and not feel bombarded with pain.

That's not too much to ask, is it?

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