The Surest Way to Make Your Trauma Pain Worse is to Hide Behind Denial
Another day of almost no sleep and fighting symptoms. You have to fight back to not fall apart. You can't let your guard down because the pain will be too much. You can't just sit and do nothing.
But as you do that, nightmares still happen. Is there a set pattern to them? Not always. But you always have to fight your way out of it. Then, in the middle of the night, what do you do? Try to go back to sleep? If you do, almost always you have more nightmares.
The pain never goes away. The severity of your symptoms is equal to the severity of your trauma history. In our case, it's trauma times 1 million.
Lots of destructive things used to be a way to escape pain. Or so we thought. In fact it was the complete opposite. It was torture every day, and you fight to barely hold onto your sanity. Nobody else helps you. So what choice do you have?
You can't take on the pain of the world and your pain all at once. You try to seperate the two to protect your well being. But it's a never ending struggle.
But as you do that, nightmares still happen. Is there a set pattern to them? Not always. But you always have to fight your way out of it. Then, in the middle of the night, what do you do? Try to go back to sleep? If you do, almost always you have more nightmares.
The pain never goes away. The severity of your symptoms is equal to the severity of your trauma history. In our case, it's trauma times 1 million.
Lots of destructive things used to be a way to escape pain. Or so we thought. In fact it was the complete opposite. It was torture every day, and you fight to barely hold onto your sanity. Nobody else helps you. So what choice do you have?
You can't take on the pain of the world and your pain all at once. You try to seperate the two to protect your well being. But it's a never ending struggle.
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