ptsdwellbeing

When was the last time we got a good night's sleep? Can't remember. Symptoms and pain are always there. You have to keep going though. At times it feels like all of the pain in the world is hitting us. Despite that, we're not abnormal in any way. We're not a failure or a threat to anyone. We did nothing wrong. It's not our fault. It's not our fault. It's not our fault. We did nothing wrong. We're not strange, weird, bizarre, a freak or any other crap. Protect your well being as best you can.

We won't hurt ourselves or anybody else. But we feel like we're being bombarded with trauma pain and all the pain in the world at the same time. It's scary, but you have to fight to keep some sense of being grounded. You have to.

You pen your eyes, and you're bombarded with sadness, depression, pain and more. But you have to keep going. Don't relapse. Don't fall apart. We don't want to hurt ourselves or anybody else. Pay attention to tiny things and how they affect you. We did nothing wrong. We're not a failure in any way. We did nothing wrong. Protect your well being.

A really long day with almost no sleep. Sleep paralysis is back. You can't move, talk or open your eyes. You almost have to shock yourself awake. My psychiatrist says that you won't die when it happens. But it's still scary. We did nothing wrong. It's not our fault. We're not a failure. We won't hurt ourselves or anybody else. We don't want to relapse and feel terrified. Protect yourself.

No matter what, don't relapse. It's not your fault that you were raped. You're not abnormal in any way. You're not a danger to yourself or anybody else. If you relapse, your pain will be worse. Protect yourself.

There's always part of you that says just relapse and your pain will go away. You know that's not true. But that weird thought is always there. Some people never stop and eventually die. But that won't happen to us. We did nothing wrong. It's not our fault. You have to protect yourself as best you can. You have to.

Don't let your guard down. If you're not careful, you disappear and you're terrified. Protect yourself as best you can. How are things in your part of the world? If you have to act, you do. But your well being comes first.

Fight symptoms and exhaustion. But we know we're doing the right things to protect our well being. You can't control what other cruel people say and do. But you can protect yourself. Because you deserve better.

Another night of nightmares, no sleep and constant exhaustion. But we're following the right steps to protect our well being. No relapses to lots of caffeine and stimulants. Destroy our sobriety. Have a dissociative relapse and disappear. We don't want to feel terrified like that. Pay attention to the tiny things in how you feel. Protect yourself.

Fighting symptoms and exhaustion. Also feeling really empty. Is it because of a sugar crash? Is it trauma pain? A combination of both? I'm not sure. You do your best to try and set boundaries to protect yourself. Because you have to.

Another night of nightmares and almost no sleep. Constant exhaustion, but you have to fight back to try and keep some sense of being grounded. You have to. You have no control over others that say and do horrible things. Nobody makes them act that way. They choose to and deal with the consequences. Protect yourself.

One minute there's some sense of balance. Then despair. But what else can you do but fight back? You can't just sit back and do nothing. You have to protect your well being. You can save the world all by yourself? No. Be aware and care. But your well being has to come first. It's not your fault. You did nothing wrong. Stay safe.

Don't dissociate. Don't relapse. This will only make your pain way worse than it already is. You have to fight back. Because you do. Protect yourself.

It's a very triggering day today. A new shooting in the US. Trump lies about a "national emergency" so he can steal money from the government. No government shutdown. But the national debt is over $22 trillion. Got almost no sleep last night. Right now, just trying to focus and not relapse. The longer you go without a relapse, the more debilitating your trauma pain is. This makes your addictions worse. Stimulants is one of the worse. Health is one thing. Physical and emotional. Not two. Stay safe.

Managed to get thru the day without having a dissociative relapse. But the pain never goes away. You can't let your guard down. Will another government shutdown happen? No one knows. Stay well.

Protect your well being as best you can. Don't forget that if your well being isn't together, you can't be effective. Almost had another dissociative relapse. But we managed to fight our way back to some sense of being grounded. Because you have to.

Fighting to not relapse. Don't put yourself in a potentially dangerous situation. It will just make the pain worse. Stay well.

Got some horrible news from a friend 3 days ago. Another best friend was murdered. One minute, he was there. The next, he was gone. Now, everything feels horribly black. Doing simple things like walking from my front door to my car takes enormous energy. Why does horrible stuff like this happen? I don't know.

You have to fight back to protect your well being. But you also have a balancing act. On the one hand, having relapses will make your pain worse. But another part of you says just give in and your pain will disappear. Be aware, care and try to make things better. But your well being comes first. How do you fight back in your part of the world. In other places, when people need to act, they act. Yes, non violent protest is the ideal. But human beings can only take so much. Now, more of the rich and powerful are seeing that. But they'll still fight like hell to stop any and all threats to their influence. Protect yourself.

A long day of fighting symptoms. Also, of trying to feel safe. Sit in a room for an hour and just focus on tangible things. The feel of the quilt you're sitting on on the bed. The doors to the kitchen and the bathroom. The fact that there's nobody else in the room. But even though you know there's nobody else there part of you dissociates and someone else is there. For a long time we couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't. Now we don't want to always feel terrified. There's nothing there. You did nothing wrong. It's not your fault. Protect yourself as best you can. You don't want to have a dissociative relapse. You don't want to fall apart. You never want to wonder where are you? We did nothing wrong. We did nothing wrong. It's not our fault. Do you still have flashbacks? Everything on bad days still feels magnified. Every sight, sound and color. You have to fight back. You can't just sit back and do nothing. Six more da

Don't relapse. Don't let your guard down so you fall apart. You have to protect yourself. That urge to just in never goes away. Do anything else you have to to not fall apart. Stay safe.

A long day of fighting symptoms and to not have a dissociative relapse. The pain and despair is always there. But you know that you don't have a choice. You have to fight back. You don't want to have a relapse and literally fall apart. We don't want to make our heart disease and other health problems worse. Because everything is connected. Why do others say and do horrible things? We don't know. Despite that, they choose to do that. They then deal with the consequences. You did nothing wrong. It's not your fault. You have to face your trauma history head on, unless it endangers you in some way. Be aware, care and try to make things better. But your well being comes first.

A long day of fighting symptoms and exhaustion. But the good news is that we're finally starting to lose weight again. The heavier you are, the higher the stress on your heart and system. But despair is always there. Protect yourself.