Focus on Quiet

A long day of fighting symptoms. Also, of trying to feel safe. Sit in a room for an hour and just focus on tangible things. The feel of the quilt you're sitting on on the bed. The doors to the kitchen and the bathroom. The fact that there's nobody else in the room. But even though you know there's nobody else there part of you dissociates and someone else is there. For a long time we couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't. Now we don't want to always feel terrified.

There's nothing there.
You did nothing wrong.
It's not your fault.

Protect yourself as best you can. You don't want to have a dissociative relapse. You don't want to fall apart. You never want to wonder where are you?

We did nothing wrong.
We did nothing wrong.
It's not our fault.

Do you still have flashbacks? Everything on bad days still feels magnified. Every sight, sound and color. You have to fight back. You can't just sit back and do nothing.

Six more days till the next government shutdown.

Protect yourself.