ptsdwellbeing

Nightmares have come back. You have to fight really hard to keep some sense of being grounded so you don't fall apart. You try to focus really hard so you know there's nobody else in the room. Nobody's hiding under the bed, in the closet or in the shower. There's no hot naked babe behind you, under you or on top of you that will do anything you say. But it takes a huge amount of energy to know what's real and what's not. No matter what, we're not strange in any way. Others who say and do horrible things have to live with the consequences of that. Not us. The pain is always there. You never get a break. But you know that you're on the right track.

A long day of fighting symptoms. Protect your well being at all cost. But you know that you're doing the right thing. Protect yourself.

The pain is always there. Blackness that never goes away. Emptiness that you can't shake. But you do your best to try and keep some sense of being grounded. Because you have to. It's not your fault. It's not your fault. Protect yourself.

Fight symptoms all day and don't drop your guard. If you do, the pain will be too much. Protect yourself as best you can. Another doctors' appointment today. We talked about my trauma history and trying to keep some sense of being grounded. Everything is connected. I don't want to end up like others in the disfunctional "family". Protect your well being.

You have to fight back. Lately at times we feel really sad. But you don't have a choice. You have to fight to keep some sense of being grounded. Protect yourself.

Fight symptoms. Don't let your guard down. Protect you well being. Because you have to. Stay well.

Another day of almost no sleep and fighting symptoms. You have to fight back to not fall apart. You can't let your guard down because the pain will be too much. You can't just sit and do nothing. But as you do that, nightmares still happen. Is there a set pattern to them? Not always. But you always have to fight your way out of it. Then, in the middle of the night, what do you do? Try to go back to sleep? If you do, almost always you have more nightmares. The pain never goes away. The severity of your symptoms is equal to the severity of your trauma history. In our case, it's trauma times 1 million. Lots of destructive things used to be a way to escape pain. Or so we thought. In fact it was the complete opposite. It was torture every day, and you fight to barely hold onto your sanity. Nobody else helps you. So what choice do you have? You can't take on the pain of the world and your pain all at once. You try to seperate the two to protect your well being. But it

Fighting symptoms and exhaustion. But we're doing the right things to protect our well being. Just screen everything to be sure. Don't let your guard down, because the pain will be too much. Protect yourself.

Another day of fighting symptoms and to not dissociate and fall apart. You can't let your guard down. If you do, the pain is too much. The pain never goes away. There is no cure. You have no choice but to fight back. Protect yourself.

You have to fight back. You have to protect yourself. But constant exhaustion is there. By the end of the day, you can barely move. But you don't have a choice. You have to protect your well being.

Screen everything. Another day of fighting symptoms and to not dissociate and fall apart. Protect your well being.

Screen everything and protect your well being. Speak out, but keep in mind that if your well being isn't together, you can't be effective. Be aware, care and do something.

Fight symptoms and don't let your guard down. Don't dissociate. Do something else. You have to fight back to keep some sense of being grounded. Sometimes flashbacks come and there's no apparent connection between them. But we're not abnormal in any way. We don't want to have a relapse and then fall apart. We haven't had a dissociative relapse in over 3 months. Protect your well being.

You have to fight back. You can't just sit and do nothing. If you let your guard down, the pain will be too much. You have to protect your well being. Because you have to.

A long day of fighting to not dissociate and fall apart. You sit in a room and focus on things around you. You're in the room all by yourself. Nobody else is there. The reflex to dissociate and fall apart is there. You have to fight really hard to not fall into that. Because you have to. You don't have a choice. You have to protect your well being.

Another week of fighting symptoms. It feels like all the pain of our trauma history is pushing down on us. But you can't hide behind denial. You have to face it head on as best you can. Sleep paralysis is happening more frequently. Sometimes two or three times a night. When it happens, it feels like you're aware of what's happening. But your body won't respond. It takes an enormous amount of energy to move your hand or arm extremely slowly. It likes your nervous system is almost completely shut down. Fortunately we don't have any neurological disease. Nothing like MS. But the terror is still there when it does happen. Despite all of the symptoms and constant exhaustion, we're not weird in any way. We're not abnormal in any way. The severity of your symptoms is equal to the severity of your trauma history. You have to fight back You can't just sit back and do nothing You can't just go with the low You have to protect your well being Protect