Something Horrible

Got some horrible news from a friend 3 days ago. Another best friend was murdered. One minute, he was there. The next, he was gone. Now, everything feels horribly black. Doing simple things like walking from my front door to my car takes enormous energy.

Why does horrible stuff like this happen? I don't know.

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