Another day of fighting symptoms and trauma pain. Arthritic pain comes and goes. Now, it's back again. I can walk, but it hurts. But you have to fight back. Don't let your guard down. If you do, you'll fall apart. The pain is always there. You're not permenantly damaged. But it never goes away. Set boundaries as best you can. You have to protect your well being.
Trying to get more sleep at night. But it's always a struggle. Went almost two days without any (partially due to my dad needing a heart procedure). Not major surgery, but still like anything has risks. It was a REAL struggle to try and focus with almost no rest. After that, just went home and to bed. Unfortunately exhaustion is one major symptom of trauma patients. You struggle to not relapse and pig out on stimulants to get some sense of energy. It just makes your pain worse. Don't relapse. That will make your pain a million times worse. The pain and emptiness are always there. On the other hand, what else can you do?
Tried to get some sleep last night. But it still feels like you can't. Nightmares still happen. You're constantly run down. Every single thing in your body hurts. You feel emotionally paralyzed. Every small thing take an enormous amount of energy. But what other choice do you have? Protect your well being.
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