Pain Paralysis

The pain never goes away. the longer you go without a relapse, the more debilitating it feels. You're not physically paralyzed. But emotionally, yes.

You have nowhere or nothing to hide behind. That's a good thing. Denial will only make it way worse than it already is.

It's not your fault.
You did nothing wrong.
Admitting you need help isn't a sign of failure.

Protect yourself. Because you have to.

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