Everything Feels Empty and Black

Another night of almost no sleep at all. You then try to get out of bed, have some breakfast and drink some tea. Then, lie down and try to focus your energy so you can at least feel ready to face your day.

Even with that, you constantly battle symptoms. Don't dissociate or black out. You feel empty and have to fight back. You don't want to drop your guard or black out. We're still taking one anti depressant. Is taking it long term harmful? You try to find reputable information to be able to make informed choices as best you can.

But the pain and emptiness never go away.

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